Today is really a depress day for me...When I heard that there were only 3 people in the class passed mathematics paper,I felt really sad cause I'm not one of them.And today...teacher returned the paper and I really get shocked with my score...A score that did not has any CGPA...
I knew I failed...but at least "lulus sebahagian" which still got 1 to 2< CGPA.However,these is what I get after all...
My luck was very bad since PMR...What I earned was always far away from what I targeted...Perhaps it was really my fault...but I can't accept it!However,reality was reality...it can't never change even though I don't accept it...
"Study hard next time"...It can't be the excuse for my failure...I can't self hypnosis and always tell myself "I will do better next time" as it never work...at least for me...
I felt really guilty now...to my family...to my teacher...and to myself.It's so shame to face it...
I don't want to think this way...and I know I should not think this way.I want to think positively,but I forced to think like these...Everytime I felt confident to score a higher marks,but it always ended up with unexpected marks...
Sometime I felt that I'm really stupid...I did all the questions to earn minimum marks...and others did some of the questions to earn maximum marks...These will make me feel that my paper was full of information,but everything was unwanted trash!
Have I made a wrong decision from the very beginning?I asked myself many times...and still the question remains unknown as I have no idea on it already...
