2009年12月30日星期三

The end of 2009

I wonder how fast the time passes by when you're not realized it.Soon 2009 will come to an end,and it's the starting of 2010.

Frankly speaking,2009 has been a great year to me.Despite there's disaster all over the world,but I gained so much in this year.Plus 2009 has come out with many great movies especially Saw VI.

Upper six life is so great.It's the first time I study everything in the syllabus for certain subjects,but before that my study style is kinda like only pick some important topics to study and that's all I'm going to sit for the examination.Of course the friends are great,but there's still some misunderstanding among the friends.That should be come to an end by right.2010 is just ahead,let go of something unnecessary,we can't bear it forever!

Guess I will feel emptiness for a while,but since facebook is there to connect all of us,so I guess I should worry for my result instead.Next year will be another turning point in my life.Everything will be entirely different from secondary school.Presentation,assignment,group discussion which rarely conducted in Form 6 will become part of the life.But what I worried the most is about something which we never handle before,R&D for instance.Well,things will not turn out that awful,this is what I believe for now.End of depressing topic.

Well,I'm looking forward to visit Langkawi in the coming April.This will be the furthest trip I take so far.Nevertheless,I should earn some traveling expenses for now.Before that,chinese new year and STPM result release day will come first.Still a fairly long way to go.

Anyway,wish everybody happy new year.Let's pray very hard so that 2010 will be a wonderful year,peace and brilliant.Not to forget to pray for better result for our STPM examination.Well then,until the advent of 2010,farewell.

2009年12月29日星期二

司法本来就应该严苛

刚看了新闻报导关于中国裁定运毒的英国男子死刑。英国方面想当然是反声连连,让其他国家来裁决自己的人,就如同别人家教训自己的儿子,任谁都不爽。

以我这个第三者看来,我是大力赞成中国这么做。司法本来就应该严苛,犯罪就得接受制裁,就那么简单。运毒本来就是人神共愤的事,人人得以诛之。想想看如果今天不制裁这个人,那日后他可能会害更多的人,而那些直接受害的人,可能又会牵连家庭。这种连锁关系的影响力可不是一般人能想像的。虽说这个英国男子被证实有精神病,是应该得饶人处且饶人的,但如果就这么放生他,他只会继续被人利用,这样只会拖累更多更多的人。虽然我本人并不是太赞成处死,怎么说也有点过火,但既然事情已成定局,我们也只能感叹他命薄啊。

话说回来,这让我想起美国的司法制度。没错,美国讲究人权是好事一件,但有些时候我觉得这个机制太不圆滑了。一个夺去三十多条宝贵生命的“人渣”也只判终身监禁,或监禁个几百年,这样的判决恰不恰当,我想天下人都心里有数。美国是个能自由拥有枪械的国家,在司法方面就应该更严苛一点。既然美国政府让人民拥有枪械,就应该定下更严厉的法律,那人们才知道拥有枪械就应该更谨慎,一旦误用就没有回头路走,那治安也自然会好很多。但现今的法律却处处讲人权,杀人不用死刑。爱杀谁就杀谁,反正到时候也不过是判个几年,而且行为良好还有得减刑,搞不好才进去年多就放人了,出来后又是一条好汉啦。我会这么想,其他人当然也会这么想,所以你说美国能不天天死人吗?之前还听说过有些个案,说某杀人犯被人报警捉了,另走前杀人犯还放下狠话对那个报案的人说:“我会回来找你的。”怎知道关了几年,杀人犯一出牢就回去杀掉那个人了。这样的司法漏洞难道美国政府看不到吗?有些人可能还情有可原,但有些人却是不能姑息的。生命是多么的宝贵,不是说关罪犯个几年就能抵偿的。再说免费养那些十恶不赦的罪犯到底有什么好处?望他们有一天回头是岸,然后为国贡献吗?


虽然其他国家的司法制度我无权评论,但我只想说“司法本来就应该严苛”,这样才能减低干坏事的人,世界也得以平静不少。

2009年12月27日星期日

未来

对未来的不确定,我想那是人生成长的一环。尤其在这个年龄,懂得思考,需要打算,付诸行动,未来才能掌握在手里。无奈未来始终很遥远……

今天中国报寄来了我前阵子在青春说里所投的稿的稿费。一篇我才用了不到三十分钟就写完的心情分享就获得了RM30的回报,这对我而言无疑是幸喜若狂的,但随之而来的却是无穷的压力。

哥哥鼓励我尝试跟中国报编辑谈,看能否让我长期投稿,藉此来铺好未来的路。哥哥在很早以前就为我定下了写稿人的理想。他常夸我写得好,但尽管他不断地赞扬,我仍然感到不安。“自己真的写得好吗?”“自己凭什么去和人家谈?”“人家又会怎么认为?”无数的疑问使我却步。

我总是踏不出第一步。总是不断地找借口让自己去逃避。总是需要一段很长的时间说服自己。然后,到了不得不面对时才发现当初自己有多傻,那紧绷到身体也会发抖的心情有多无谓。尽管如此,直到今天自己仍是这个摸样。面对自己不想面对的东西时,有什么比逃避还来得更有效?面对问题的勇气对我来说是那么地遥不可及。劣根性岂可是一两天就能连根拔起的。

周遭的很多事情都时常提醒着自己,思绪也总是不知不觉地想到未来。很不安,很不确定,以后的自己该何去何从?逃避现实固然没用,也总该给点时间自己去酝酿勇气,但这种情况到底要持续到什么时候?老是紧张,老是被压力压着,但就是甩不开它,这样下去到底会如何?明明是很清楚自身的问题,身边也确实有人在推自己一把,而解决的方法也掌握在手,但就是踏不出那沉重的一步。

青春或许需要磨练才可成熟起来,但时间从来就不等人。未来到底会如何?迷失了……迷失在自己的弱点里……

2009年12月22日星期二

We are human,thus we lie

I just finished reading a psychology-related book last week.Well,it's about time for me to comment some of the points stated in the book which is quite related to biology.

I found out this point interesting - we will forget some depressing memory due to natural selection,cause this will help us live better and thus leave more offspring.This remind me a news I read two weeks ago.A counselor said that victim of rape will forget the incident happen on them,but like what the counselor said they just forget.So,when something which can bring back the memory occur,they will realize everything.When I related both of it,yes the point does make sense.If we forget that horrible memory,we do survive better.Another example which is quite connected is that almost of us have forgotten our infancy memory.This remind me what the elderly said,infant can see "dirty thing".If this is true,than the point is again make sense.

Another point stated in the book is so true,but maybe will lead to some misunderstanding and arise of lame excuse.Lie is neither good nor bad,it's just something we need in order to survive.Yes,there is uncountable lie in the nature.Some animals need to lie in order to evade their predator,some need to lie to get foods,some need to lie to complete their life cycle.Therefore,in simple and accurate way,lie is needed to survive.

Well,I guess the rest of the points stated in the book are inclined theory which is too bored to be understood.So,hope you can "digest" these.

2009年10月20日星期二

中六毕业典礼

下个星期一学校会有个为我们Upper Six生特别举办的毕业典礼。

策划人说这个毕业典礼与大学的毕业典礼有80%相似。或许真的有80%相似也说不定,但剩下的20%不相似,包括毕业典礼得穿校服,还有其他零零碎碎的事使得很多朋友都却步。

老实说,我多少都感到有点沮丧。这个毕业典礼说不定是中六毕业以前,最后一次与大家在校外相聚的日子了,但部分朋友仍对毕业典礼不满而欲缺席。继上一年的Putra一日游,直到今年的Taman Burung&Aquaria一日游,到不久前的三日两夜Kem Jom Skor“A”,没有一次是人齐的……

毕业以后大家都各自飞了。几可还有机会能在上课时间以外聚在一起?

虽然我不知道其他同学如何看待这个毕业典礼。浪费钱?浪费时间?约束多多?但对我而言,这也许是我第一次也是最后一次的在校美满回忆。


每每阅读某些日本的校园青春漫画,看着毕业旅行,看着校外考察,看着那些虚拟却那么美丽的回忆。我就感到一阵心酸……

2009年10月6日星期二

世风日下,老千难防

首先,我要声明这宗老千行骗记并不是发生在我身上,而是发生在我亲爱的老哥身上。

话说当天他如常在晚上十点多去到Mid Valley的KTM站那准备搭火车回家。故事就在那一刻开始。

据哥哥的口供,老千是一名穿着专业,相貌堂堂的印度男人。老千自称是一名大学教授,由于钱包掉了,所以想向哥哥要点钱来江湖救急。

由于哥哥是名爱心泛滥的绝种人类(当事人自认的,真是不要脸),所以他很快就中计了。幸运的是当时哥哥的钱包已经扁得挤不出半毛钱了(就算挤得出,老千也不要),所以哥哥就告诉老千等火车开到Putra后,他才去那里按给他。

然后,就在火车开到Putra后,老千声称他的车子停在XX站,但油缸就要见底了,所以要求随便给他个几百块就够了。就是这番话出卖了老千,就算再笨再有爱心的人如我家老哥,也不可能会把这么一笔钱免费送人。但哥哥依然顺着他的计,去到那里的ATM机。仿佛老天爷也看不过有人那么坏心眼去骗人钱般,ATM机out of service。由于哥哥搭的那辆火车已是最后一班,哥哥因此倒霉地被老千害得卡在Putra站那里。这个情况下,哥哥就打电话要老爸去载他,顺便告诉老千:“我爸爸就要来了,等他来了肯定就能帮到你了,放心吧!”据哥哥透露,叫爸爸来在他是主因,但其实另一个目的是找多个帮手来群殴老千。

想当然教训老千是没成功的咯,因为老千在见到形势不对下,已借尿遁了。说上个厕所,然后就不见踪影了。

故事就此结尾。

至今为止,老千事件并未发生在我身上。就算有,我也在老千想上演行骗进行曲时逃之夭夭了。现在的社会真的很阴险。哥哥那一单已算是小儿科了,至少老千只有一个人。顺便再这里提醒一些朋友们,尚若有人上门推销,最好就假装没人在家,让他喊死吧!因为据我姨妈所说,现在有些假装上门推销的老千会使一种手段,令你意识不清下把财物送给他,或较常见得是在你开门给他后就使用Chloroform让你昏迷。

害人之心不可有(赠给老千们);防人之心不可无(赠给良好市民)

2009年9月6日星期日

忽然醒悟

最近温习Chemistry时,温习到一半哭了。忽然感觉自己在一年半里好像什么也没学过似的,得重头温习到尾。但我发觉其实根本不是这么一回事。我会哭,是因为我的数学考得不好,搞不好会不及格,而chemistry一向就考得不好。我怕...怕退步?不是。那到底怕什么呢?原来我怕的是自己考得很差的话,会输!

这个心理从以前就一直存在。不断地向其他人比较,赢过别人就沾沾自喜。这一直是推动着我考得更好的动力。但我错了...我被虚荣心给迷惑了,连我当初进Form 6时的目的也忘了,彻底地忘了。

记得自己在进Form 6时对自己说过:“我报读Form 6只是为了得到知识,仅此而已。”因为我未来的目标根本不是在理科的领域里。

其实会哭,一半的原因也是因为怕辜负了他人的期望。但想想这样其实是不对的,考试是自己的事,考的好或差,只需要对自己负责,因为未来是自己的。

老实说,考试分数并不能代表什么。尤其是像STPM般把你读了一年半,厚达几千页的知识一次过在几十个试题里测验你的考试方式,根本不能代表什么。这绝大部分不过是在试验着一个人的记性能去到什么程度。考得好,那固然是好;考得差,只能说明你不适合那个系,但不能代表你笨过其他人。

或许可以说我自我安慰,或逃避失败。但对我个人来说,我真的领悟到一件事。读书,是看你可以带走多少知识,而不是看你的分数可以去到多高。

2009年8月25日星期二

渐渐地冷感了...

也不晓得是几时开始的,我变得不再喜欢电影。

昨晚表哥买了G.I.Joe回来,不用说当然是翻版的咯。话说这部电影自命能媲美Transformer,加上trailer里那些紧张的场面,还真的教我对它燃起了那么点兴趣,但也不过是那么一点点。之后,我在开端看了不到五分钟就没再看下去了。

原因为何?是闷吗?好像不是。场面乱糟糟?有那么一点。剧情肤浅?或许吧,但看这部电影的人不都只是期待它的动作场面罢了吗?总而言之,就是提不起劲看下去。

记得以前我在玩PS的时候,爸爸说过“这种东西有什么好玩的?我一点也不想玩。”当时我只觉得诡异。对!就是诡异!PS那么好玩,画面又美,音乐又好听,而且还带我们进入一个幻想的世界里,那可是多少人的梦想啊?之后,我就在心里对自己说,我才不会变成像爸爸那样无趣的人,我要永远地保持着内心里那份童真,他日有了孩子以后要和他们一起打电动,一起在online game里升级打怪!

但是...电影也曾经是童年里占了一席之地的回忆啊。想当初爸爸带我们去自家附近的电影院看Gozilla时,我是那么地兴奋。就算没有上电影院,只要有翻版VCD/DVD我也同样高兴得不得了。

可如今呢?Transformer 2,大家对它介赞不绝口,但我根本没半点兴趣。也许窝在家里看,我还能坚持个几十分钟,但要我上电影院,那真是抱歉了。

现在只期望着近期将上映的Final Destination 4。但大多数都是看翻版吧?要我特地大老远地“下坡”看部戏,对我来说倒不如睡觉还来得有意义。

话说我最近也开始对动画冷感了...家里堆了十多部动画都没兴致想看。也许本身是收藏狂吧,不看也想买来收...但我仍记得自己在买下的那一刻时是那么地期待,恨不得立刻开来看,但回到家以后就没完动力了,那股莫名的狂热也消失地干干净净了。

要进入蜕变期了吗?也许吧...

也许不出几年,我会对这个青少年期所曾经迷恋的都冷感了吧?生命里的每一个阶段,也许都有各自独立的兴趣。下一个兴趣或许是数钱...吧?

2009年8月24日星期一

STPM trial 以前的假期

短暂的假期又到了,我也一如往常地当起宅男。别误会哦,我这里所指的宅男不是那些融不如社会,成天躲在宅里打电动,泡动画那类。我是因为没必要出去哪里,而当起“顾家男”。爱待在家里的儿女,那可是无数父母的愿望啊~~

虽说是STPM Trial 以前的短暂休息,但我也没特别积极地去K书。怎么说,有mood读的时候就去翻翻来看吧,然后就是又吃又睡又上网的颓废生活了。

只剩三个月了,离真正的STPM还剩下这么一段时间,真是所谓的时间如流水。Anyway,反正再给个我半年的时间让我温习,我想也不会有什么分别。没办法,我就是那种不到最后一秒,都懒的去碰书的人。

Hmm...算算,我也不过是积极地温习数学和生物学罢了。化学也许兴致来的时候才去碰吧。但Pengajian Am我是打算碰也不碰了。就在考前的一两天翻两页来看吧。同学们知道为何我那么不想温习Pengajian Am吗?那是因为作为一个聪明的投资者如我,是不可能去碰这个高付出,低回报的科目滴。怎么说呢?拿生物学来说,我读得死去活来,奋不顾身,而我所读的是在Paper 1+Paper 2均有用到的。但Pengajian Am呢?Paper 1 的范围又大又闷又罗哩罗嗦,而最终它的回报率只占了整份Pengaijian Am的37.5%。准确来说是连37.5%也不如,因为Paper 1的60题题目里有15题是计算题,是无需去读的。而剩下那大部分的60+%却来自Paper 2.Paper 2和Paper 1一点关系也没,那Paper 1读来的东西还有用武之地吗?答案是没有!

因此,我在此劝那些临时抱佛脚的同学,别浪费时间去K Pengajian Am 1了。就算你完完全全不去碰它,你也不会说一题也不会的,前提是你有阅报的习惯。反正你的运气再差,你也总能在前面45题里对得了10题左右吧?加上那15题的常识计算问题,你也对得了20-30题左右吧?剩下的就看Paper 2。要pass根本就不是问题。(想考A的人请无视)

最后,我在这里祝福所有在今年考STPM的同学们能考到如自己所期望般的成绩。如果你还未帮自己定下一个目标,麻烦赶快这么做。

STPM万岁~~

2009年8月14日星期五

经典照片

这是Lee Sien那里得来的照片。
在Bird Park时拍的经典照片。
自觉有必要把经典永远保存下来,因此把它保存在blog里。

这张照片意境很深。
拍下了摔倒的人在那个非常时刻刚巧露出的“开心表情”。
同时也拍下了另一个确实是正感到开心的人的表情,以显示对比。
主题应该类似于玩着,摔着都那么开心。

习惯了眼泪

习惯了眼泪...
在不知不觉中已习惯了眼泪...

昨晚你又怒骂了我一顿,
为什么?为什么你总是那么爱发我脾气?
我做错了什么?我自认昨晚的我无辜得很。
昨晚我早已疲惫不堪。
你在深夜里扰我睡眠就算了,你竟然还在我朦朦胧胧间谩骂我?!
他迟迟不回家,也没交代一声,你却先狠狠地训我一顿先?!
说我一点都不紧张,还骂那些难听的话。
半夜被吵醒,试问谁能在几秒内就反应过来?
你不觉得自己太过不可理喻了吗?

好了,原来他手机打不通,要我开window live messenger找找他。
电脑被启动期间,我趁这个时候争取睡眠。
你却突然“woi”的一声,吓得我三魂不见了七魄。
然后,又是一连串的打骂。
我解释电脑正启动着,难道我连闭上眼睛养养神也不行?
你却反过来用极致愤怒的语气骂我一点都不紧张他什么的。
还刻意说得比我大声,刻意盖过我的声音不听我说的。
长久以来都是这样,在你耳里我说的都是没道理的话,说我只会顶嘴。
你以为我那么幼稚,连是非清白也分不清吗?

上了window live messenger,发现他还在。
我就如实向你替他报平安。
你对他迟回家不出声一事感到很愤怒,可谩骂的话却是说给我听的。
你可知道关电脑回房后,我躲在被子里默默地流泪了吗?
我几乎哭了整一个小时,才哭着睡了过去。

有一件事我感到很奇怪。
首先,他又不是第一天那么迟回家,也不是第一天手机没电,更何况他都二十几岁人了。
你担心迟迟不归的他,我可以理解。但有必要把你的情绪发泄在我身上吗?
这件事让我忆起从前的一段日子。
当时的我才刚搬到Taman Bersatu不久。
由于想念翠岭的朋友,我就连晚上也踏着脚踏车去找他们。
有时候还在晚上九点出,半夜一点多才踏着脚车回来。
可当时的你却没去理会我。
也许当时我没手机,你联络不了我。
但你可以联络我的朋友,或直接驾着车来找我,但你却表现得不闻不问。
也许当时你觉得·我有手有脚,自己会回家。
问题是,他也有手有脚,自己会回家啊。
更何况我当时才form 3,而他已二十来岁。
为什么你在这两件事上可以表现得那么极端?

罢了,你重大轻小也不是新鲜事了。
何况今时今日的我也不再稀罕你的关心。
但麻烦你可以别拖我下水可以吗?
你要宠他上天是你的事,但麻烦别再心情不好时来找我发泄。
我也是人,我也有知觉,我也讨厌被人骂,更何况是不可理喻的咒骂!
有时候,我真的很不明白你是怎么一个人。
不可理喻,气量超小,爱把小问题放大,又自以为是,没意识到自己的问题,总认为自己对的。
有时候看你在说哪些人怎样怎样。
我心想那不是你妈?
我夹菜不小心掉在地上,你就用斜眼我,我又不是不抹,你不爽什么?
所谓人非圣贤,孰能无过。就算是圣贤也会不小心掉东西在地上吧?
一件微不足道的事你也看得那么重,你不觉得日子过得苦吗?

有时候我真的觉得很怕。
我总是认为自己是个不记仇的人,因为我真的很快就能忘了之前的不快。
但渐渐地,我发觉我是错的。
我不是不记仇,我不过是很快地把情绪压抑下来。
每每流下委屈的泪水,我总是快速地想起以前所有不公的回忆。

习惯了眼泪
但这么持续下去,眼泪也会变质。
变成深红色的鲜血。
不是你的...
是我的...

2009年8月8日星期六

Bird Park & Aquaria Memories

I went to Bird Park and Aquaria last Sunday.However,I'm too lazy to transfer the photos to the computer,so the process has delayed to just today.

It was a very new experience for me as I have never went to zoo before.In fact,I was looking forward to go Zoo than Bird Park.Anyway,Bird Park did not disappoint me so do Aquaria.

These are some of the photos I caught that day,the nicest photos of course.


Ok,that's all for today.The pictures of Aquaria will be posted next time.By the way,don't expect too much for the pictures of Aquaria,because the surrounding was dark,plus the fish kept on moving.So the photo quality was truely bad.

Well,have fun for watching these pictures~



2009年7月16日星期四

有感而发

有一段时间没写部落格了,这次可谓是为了更新一下部落格而强迫自己写些东西的。

首先,就说说最近发生的“大件事”好了。MUET我得了个Band 4回来,对于这个结果我没什么感觉。总而言之,就是逃过了重考的命运,我实在不想再理会MUET了,虽然我挺爱英文的。

话说今天我和4 flat(Choon Khen改的 = =)在学校做了个PMR的华文理解问题。那篇短文读起来还真是一点难度都没有,但是我竟然只在5题里只答对了2题,而4 flat却答对了全部?!什么跟什么啊?我自认中文还不错,而且中文也没有退步的现象,但我竟然连PMR的问题都答得那么烂。这不禁让我想起我的PMR中文才得了个C,原来是有迹可寻的= =。算啦,怪就怪自己只读一遍,而且答案都非常相近。别提了~

昨晚心血来潮地上网查了些大学的资料。看了马来西亚几所有名的大学资料后,我才惊然发现我要读的科目竟然都不在它们的课程表里。我的天啊,这表示我得去较远的大学,如Universiti Terrengganu/Universiti Sabah。心理学真的有那么冷门吗?但老实说自我听说马来西亚的心理学教程是以马来文进行后,我已经对马来西亚的大学没什么兴趣了,但无奈我得面对金钱这个残忍的现实。

唉...没什么好写了。看来我的生活还真是非一般的乏味。算了,就这样。

2009年5月22日星期五

What I expected have never come true.

Firstly,I wonder how fast was Soosan's marking speed?!

We took Maths T paper 1 on Wednesday,and she gave back the paper to us on Friday?!It's too fast,I don't even make up my mind to take back my paper.

This time she really be strict to us.She called out every single person who got wrong in the easy question,such as matrix.Fortunately,she did not scold me.Perhaps I have a great improvement compare to last time.

Anyway,what I expected have never come true.I expected to get a B+ for my maths T.But now my paper 1 just got B.This mean my paper 2 has to score higher,but I'm not that confident in paper 2...

Haiz...In fact,I felt quite frustrated after getting my paper 1.I made a lot of careless mistakes man!And some question was very easy actually,but I thought too much at that time and making my answer complex and wrong.What the heck am I doing at that moment?

By the way,what done is done.I should do revision for other subjects now.

2009年4月25日星期六

Damn you,listening test!

Reading,writing and listening test had just over yesterday.

Well,I tried my best and I felt satisfied with my reading and writing paper though the test is not that easy.

But when came to listening test,I felt very frustrated or should I put angry?I can't listen clearly to the radio as the voice was too soft...And when I reflected my problem to the prefect,she just told me that the volume has reached to maximum and she can't do anything about it.

What the hell is that!Don't tell me her job is just to press play and let the tape works itself till the end of the listening test.Damn!I was frustrated throughout the listening test,cause I can't listen clearly on what the speakers said!

If I can score 10 out of 20 question,I'm relieved already.But would it be possible?

I was feeling to scold the prefects at that time.My MUET teacher told me there will be perfect silent during listening test,but the stupid prefects walked around with her high heels.Don't her know that the sound was so interrupting?

Damn!Damn!Damn!Everything was really pissed me off during the listening test!

Geez...I'm not going to take the test again,the band can't prove anything.To hell the listening test!Holy shit!

2009年4月13日星期一

My hand just injured by pipette on last Friday.

In fact,I'm not going to write this out since it's not really a "big case" to me.But since I'm extremely bored now,so be it.

My hand was injured by pipette on last friday (around 11 a.m.) at S.M.K Seri Garing's Chemistry Laboratory.I wonder how dumb am I.How can I injured my hand by myself.Sigh...I'm always saying a classmate who sit besides me clumsy,but I'm the clumsy after all.

Connect the syringe to a pipette.Isn't that a easy job?Indeed,it's really a easy job,but I made it difficult.Haiz...according to "someone's law" Force=mass x speed (hope I'm wrong even I had given back everything to my physics teacher) And that force is enough to cut a small wound somewhere near my "little finger".Can you imagine how "brutal" am I while conducting an experiment.Though the wound is small,but it non-stop bleeding.To be frank,that really scared me.Not because of the wound,but the non-stop bleeding.

Still remember that after my hand was being cutted by the pipette,"my world" was completely stoodstill for about 2 seconds.Soon after the incident,I was searching for the lab.assistant to get some aid.However,the lab.assistant seem lacking experience in handling this matter.

Anyway,I'm sent to a clinic.Before I continued the story,I must express my gratitude to 2 person first.They are my classmate and my homeroom teacher.Anyway,I should thanks to everybody who raised a hand to me while I'm in trouble.You know...I'm truly a silly in this case.

Well,what happened in clinic is actually not interesting at all.But one thing frightened me.That is when the doctor tried to check my wound.I felt really panic at that moment.After that,the nurse helped me to clean and the wound and so on and the doctor injected my body with anti-tetanus vaccine.The cost was RM 40 which is considered as cheap already.

After that incident,I realized what the old people so called "Be careful can ensure our safety for ten thousand years"

My hand has not healed yet.I heard the nurse said that my wound needs about 1 week to healed.Anyway,I wonder will there be any scar after the skin tissues recover.

2009年3月3日星期二

I'm feeling extremely down...

Today is really a depress day for me...When I heard that there were only 3 people in the class passed mathematics paper,I felt really sad cause I'm not one of them.And today...teacher returned the paper and I really get shocked with my score...A score that did not has any CGPA...

I knew I failed...but at least "lulus sebahagian" which still got 1 to 2< CGPA.However,these is what I get after all...

My luck was very bad since PMR...What I earned was always far away from what I targeted...Perhaps it was really my fault...but I can't accept it!However,reality was reality...it can't never change even though I don't accept it...

"Study hard next time"...It can't be the excuse for my failure...I can't self hypnosis and always tell myself "I will do better next time" as it never work...at least for me...

I felt really guilty now...to my family...to my teacher...and to myself.It's so shame to face it...

I don't want to think this way...and I know I should not think this way.I want to think positively,but I forced to think like these...Everytime I felt confident to score a higher marks,but it always ended up with unexpected marks...

Sometime I felt that I'm really stupid...I did all the questions to earn minimum marks...and others did some of the questions to earn maximum marks...These will make me feel that my paper was full of information,but everything was unwanted trash!

Have I made a wrong decision from the very beginning?I asked myself many times...and still the question remains unknown as I have no idea on it already...

2009年2月25日星期三

I just can't believe it !!

I heard a break news today...which I had failed my mathematics!!

!@#$%^&*()_+ What the heck is that?!I just can't believe it!!Though I put "less effort" on mathematics,but I had struggle for it!I really did "glanced through" my mathematics text books.Geez...this can't be!

Mathematics really makes me frustated...I like it,but I hate it;I hate it,but I like it(what kind of language is this?)...Arghh!!Sometime it's full of joy,sometime it's full of stress...Man...Why...?Tell me why a biology student has to take mathematics as it got no related at all to our main subject!These subject should left for physics students,they are the one who genius in these...

Haiz...fail...what a strange word to me(relax...put away your "banana skin" and egg shell)So far I have never failed mathematics...(notice that additional mathematics is excluded)Grr...I can't let it beat me down as I don't want to being looked down by our "lovely" mathematics teacher-Pn SooSan.

I have made up my mind!I will show you my true power my lovely teacher.So...until the next examination,I will endure any single teasing word that you say!!!!Just wait and see!!!!

2009年2月3日星期二

久违了,诸位。

自开学以来就没有再上部落格写写东西,说说废话了。

Upper 6的生活说忙不忙。不上部落格,纯粹是自己在做其他没营养的事...时间其实更本就是够用得不得了,但我都拿来做些没生产力且令时间流逝地特别快的事。惭愧吗?也不会啊。我又没荒废学业的说,不过是娱乐娱乐,当是放松自己咯(逃避责任的藉口)。

需要塞进大脑的东西又变多了。无论是些用不着的数学程式,说出来90%人也不明的生物学科学字眼,还是同样让人摸不着头脑的化学词。为了STPM,还是得拼...拼命把它塞进脑袋瓜,爱拼才会赢嘛!但是...话说自己以后都不会走这条路了,还得这么委屈自己来把它们记起来,还真是吃力又不讨好。罢了!看在STPM份上唯有上咯。

话说在某些论坛上看到某些前辈们诉说自己那个时代的Form 6生涯,老师教书又好像火箭那么快啦、下课都得挨面包复习啦、上课前大家你抄我功课我抄你report什么的。冒昧地请教下,这是真的吗?为什么此等情景从未在我班上出现过?班上的同学的态度基本上就和度蜜月没太大差别,哪来的那些乱七八糟的现象啊?

总而言之,言而总之。基本上,我是在胡写罢了。最近实在没什么特别的事情想向大家报告。就随意地涂鸦咯。字数都差不多了,我该是功成身退,隐居做回我的御宅族了,掰掰~有缘再回~